Namaste and Love to The Universe.
This is my Truth at this moment in my life.
I would like to express myself
And deeply appreciate this opportunity. Om Nama Shivaya.

Here goes:

Namaste, Dear Walker,
Namaste, Dear Valentine, I wish this note would find you living in your moment, at work..you, amid the hustle-n-gongshow of Olympics. I am truly happy for your experience and intimacy with the athletes. I am very proud of how honestly, earnestly,passionately, and emotionally you work.
You have always been this type of person, with integrity, and you bring that to your writing. I admire how hard you work, Walks. Really.
I wish I could write like you. (Can’t YOU just help me with my book? LOL!)
TRUTH BE TOLD:
Walker, ya got HEART!

I know you are verybusy working, and we will not see each other, or actually “do” anything for “Valentine’s Day”……but honestly, we never actually have. We didn’t have a normal first year of marriage. It was challenged from the start.
Okay….it was fucked. Lesser men would’ve turned around. And I did try to give you many “outs”, wanting you to have “more fun with someone who has less drama”……
I know that when you married me, and gave up the bevy of surfergrrls (who, admittedly, are somewhat hot) to make a commitment….I bet you didn’t count on my having cancer and stuff. It must have FUCKING SUCKED………..and I am so sorry for that….for you…my heart aches-to-dying when I think about your experience. You’re a dude. Ya don’t fess-up to the woman. Or anyone. I just want you to know I honor+acknowledge your feelings-all of them.
I bet you didn’t imagine your bride with chemo-looks, and the topsyturvy schedule of treatment, not to mention having no privacy while trying to deal.
Not to mention my making a record at the same time (which is its own emotional endeavor-trust me!)
Not to mention our navigating basically “getting to know” each other (BACON BOY VS VEGAN GIRL, for starters) and living together (which, most people don’t know, we didn’t do very long-or date that long, prior to our wedding).
And then, Annastasia died, Transcending to Nirvana, leaving Nicklas+I (and now, you) on this astral plane without her loving little eyelash kisses.

And that was just the first year.

Then when I returned to touring, I was simply gone. Physically away. Absent.
And that was like the rest of it never happened. Swept under the rug. Forgotten.
But it happened. And it happened to you+me.
And we are still navigating it all.
It is hard. Most people may have simply bailed.
Fair enough.
But we didn’t.
We still don’t. And I just want to say thanks.
Thank you for being a Big Brave Boy.
And, I know I was a Big Girl. I ALWAYS am. It takes fuckall for me…..but that’s a coping technique that requires A LOT of therapy (which I’ve never gotten).
Just because I got “my game face on” all the time, doesn’t mean I’m “strong” it just means I’m a “Pro”.
But…through THIS relationship..
I am learning lots of lessons. I am learning Patience. Learning Non-Judgment. Learning to shoot a puck straight. Learning about myself through you. Learning to “Respond” not “React”.
And you are my teacher.
I think that is pretty cool.
I know it is not my way to be all “Valentine’s” and I know its not yours……but THIS year, I actually have a question for you….seeing a how we MAY get a shot at having a “more normal relationship” and everything..
Walker……
WILL YOU BE MY VALENTINE?
It’d be cool, Dude.
Later,
Biffy
Xoxo

(*note to all of my LoveyduckyBeautifulPeople…”Later” is Walkerspeak for, “blessings/goodbye/gowithGod/love2you/etc” )LOL!

Namaste, Salaam, Buenas Dias, Bonjour, and Merhaba to everyone! Welcome to a new week. I hope you are all in a state of positivity and good feelings. Good energy. Good intentions. It is good to feel good, aint it?
We are very blessed to live in a safe, vibrant city. Vancouver is very grown-up, right now. In her Sunday Best, ready to greet all the strangers who will be coming to experience The Olympics. It is increasingly interesting to me, on a sociopolitical level. A real polarization in energy, from the locals. Tres etrange. Very weird.
My lefty pals are all feeling stressed. This is due to the simmering undercurrent of unrest among their peeps. My other pals, many of whom are in retail or in arts or food-industries are hoping the millions of eyeballs will gaze upon their creations, and hoping to gain exposure. Neither side is wrong. Really.
Anticipation+anxiety is imminent.
People are unusually aware of their surroundings.
It is a bit weird….people are stressed.
This is unnecessary, in my humble+possibly naieve opinion. Stress is bad for us. As individuals, and as a community.
We have ENOUGH stress in our lives. Health+family+jobs+housing+finances+on and on.
How do we avoid adding stress? We can’t. Life is just like that. Shit will come up. Obstacles will appear. We are constantly forced to navigate our own lives all the time. Its just “life”.
So, how do we stay “calm” or “centered” or “indifferent” about stresss? What are some tools?
TOOOL!!! Yes. Listen to TOOL. LOL!
Or whatever band. Yes, Lovies, MUSIC transports us. I listen to A LOT of Bhangra, as you know. It makes me veryvery happy. And that usually gives way to being SO happy to hear the music I’m listening to, that it will occur to me that I am lucky to be able to HEAR it at all!!! Lucky and blessed. Om Hare Om.
So, GRATITUDE for my hearing. That sharpens my focus, taking the focus OFF whatever stressor I thought about five minutes before.
Same goes for drinking a cool glass of water (an ancient trick to combat “anger” or “stress”) I drink a glass of cool water an think: “holyfuck! I’m lucky to have clean water!” And GRADITUDE once again wins over stress. Eat a banana? My belly gets happy.
GRATITUDE for available food.
Go for a walk in the safe city. Yup! You guessed it: GRATITUDE for our safety.
You get the picture.
It is my own personal way of life, and that is my journey. Not anyone else’s. So it is with respect that I offer these extremely simple suggestions. :)
Everyone has their own way to de-stress and calm their minds. And, whatever works for you, is what is gonna work for you. So live your Truth.
Feel good. Calm down however you can. It will enhance your experience of the moment, and hopefully, your stress will fade- even if for a little while. And when it comes up again, repeat your de-stressing behaviour, and it will again fade.
Again, and again, and again.
Repeat, repeat, repeat.
Or, you can cover your eyes (see above photo) in the whole “See No Evil” shtick. But that is a temporary solution.
And, no, I will NOT be aquiring a doggie-”calming-cap” for my Nicklas!!!!!!! LOL! His de-stressing techniques are the best of all: go for a walk, have a good poop, drinking fresh water, eat healthy food (that I make for him, remember: I NEVER fed him “dog food” a.k.a. “Horses+pigs hooves” yuk! LOL!) And feeling loved and secure as he lay his head down to sleep. Om Nama Shivaya.
I wish that same feeling for EVERYONE!!!! If ONLY we were DOGS!!!!!!
It makes me feel calmer just to think about having a “dog’s life” because it makes me laugh.
And laughing will definately keep you calm. :)
Which is exactly why I took the photo of the dog calming cap in that NorthVan petstore, in the first place: it made me laugh OUT LOUD!
I hope everyone of you finds laughs and calm energy this week. Well, all the time, actually. Find your center and return to it often. Less stress more laughs. You will make it through anything.
And, of course, listening to Bhangra.
Or Tool.
Most importantly, listen to your HEART. The gratitude is inside it. Listen to what it says.
It will keep you calm.
Blessings and bliss without blinders on,
Love,
Biffy
Xo

Namaste and Sussreekall!! Bonjour all you Beautiful, Perfect People. May you be feeling blissfully hopeful and satisfied. Om Hare Om. Perhaps you are reading this from work? Or school? Or on your hand-gadget?
I have heard this blog doesn’t show up on the igadgets? You KNOW how computer/tech-stoopid I am, personally…but I promise to investigate and get my peeps to solve. :)
I have put this above photograph, of a typical rekkid store shelf (this was in an airport, somewhere…) And I was thrilled to see THE PROMISE among the cds for sale! Thrilled!
But you know, that is simply not how most folks buy music, anymore. I have seen all the changes in my very fortunate, fantastic 20+ years in the biz.
When I started, we sold casettes off the stage! LOL!
When my first rekkid came out, in 1994, it was the first “CD” I had ever put out. Serendipitous times!
Ahhhhh……and the years that passed, the “internet” really “caught on”. LOL!
And that was that. Music became free.
This, of course, was a great opportunity! One’s creations became available for discovery all over the planet- in an instant!!! Amazing, really.
I was veryveryvery lucky to be able to make fans all over the world. I am so fortunate!! So blessed!
I was able to tour and tour and tour to support records that came out in those places!
But you know, there was not too much money to be made (unless you were, say, JLo or Snoop).
I am very lucky I have been able to enjoy a wonderful career. REALLY lucky. And REALLY grateful!!!!!
I had food, had a place to live, had happyfatpigletbabydogs, had toursupport. LUCKYGIRL, MOI!!!!!!
But I just don’t know how a young band, today, could make money or carve out a living, creating their art.
People don’t buy “records” anymore. Even off of the music-for-money sites.
People buy “singles”.
And that’s cool.
But how does a young band eat? How can they tour?
Record companies rarely foot the bill to fly them anywhere, anymore. They have their own problems. How can they even do “development” deals with young bands? Their existing rosters require their promotional attention. It perplexes me.
What do you think?
I’ve never been “in it for the money” as you know, and I am confident MOST bands are not. At the end of the day, artists/bands just want to PLAY FOR YOU.
Its actually quite a beautiful thing.
There are a lot of bands that come through my town. And the shows are usually sold-out…because we want to go see them.
There are a lot of bands who don’t tour.
Or who can’t.
I think I would personally like to make more of an effort to go out (past my bedtime) and see bands. Support them. Encourage them. Enjoy them.
You, too?
I kinda feel bad for bands that are booked in Vancouver during The Olympics because a lot of locals will avoid going downtown due to travel+parking restrictions. Poor bands!
But…if we are creative+patient..we can get down to gigs and not even notice any inconvenience from Olympic fever. Right?
Other than that, there is nothing to stop us!!
I am always interested to hear new stuff.
NEW MUSIC IS INTOXICATING!
And, yes, Lovies, our new secret sideproject rekkid is completed!!!!!!!! (Yep. You will get details, sooooon!!!) And I am curious to see how it shakes out with releasing-timelines.
Musicmusicmusic really is and becomes the soundtracks for our lives! I love that!!!!!!
But as far as touring goes….I will keep you informed as I have some new projects in the works…it is already shaping up to be a busy year. Like a bee buzzing I am ever becoming what I’m supposed to become..
We each are. Fuck! That’s cool!
And I’m still not interested in money-as-reward. Communication is priceless!
And your friendship is pure gold.
Om Nama Shivaya.
Enjoy your weekend!!!!! Eat good food, be kind to your body, and go see a band!!!!!!!!!!
Love energy and positivity to you, as ever..
Love,
Biffy
Xo

Namaste! Buenas Dias! Salaam! Merhaba! Bonjour! And Howdyho to all of you Beautiful Love Monsters!!! Yessireebob: its FEBRUARY!!! Joy! Bliss! CrazyOlympics! HappyLoveyDovey-Valentine’s-Month! Very excited for the LOVEY spirit that overtakes the collective conciousness of the masses. I like Valentine’s Day very much! I’m already plotting my “Be-My-Valentine” actions. Heh,heh.
As you see, today’s photo is of Nicklas and his late wife, Sri Annatasia Louisa MonaLisa Molinare. This photograph displays perfect connection between two sentient beings. They were sooooo connected. It was effortless and easy for them to be in total love every single day they were together. Om Nama Shivaya.
It was as natural and as easy as breathing. There was never confusion or questioning. It just “was”.
Fuck! That is beautiful.
That is basically what people seek. That effortless connection. The mirror of their own soul. The Partner. The Twin Soul. The One.
Interesting to me. I LOVE love. Love it! Live for it!
It is my favoritefavorite concept.
Love energy. The radiation of the heart. Its cool.
Makes me write songs. Songs about seeking+yearning+dreaming for LOVE. Songs about being in LOVE. Songs about loss of LOVE. Its permeated my creative inspiration for my entire life.
And I love just about everything. Sick, I know. LOL!
A lot of my friends are seeking “love” as they are newly or still “single”. The seeking often gets ahold of them and this causes suffering.
But I always say, “that which you are seeking is what’s causing you to seek..”
Cuz its true.
The theory is “when you are NOT looking” that is when LOVE will find you.
Perhaps.
But I prefer to find the LOVE within all experiences and love the thrill of the hunt, the “seek”, the adventure of discovery. Love the journey. And love the place you’re in along the journey. Why not? Why “suffer” and rob yourself of even one single minute of your life? What good does that do?
Nada!
I wish everyone success in their quest for “love” wherever you are in that journey. I wish happiness and satisfaction for you. :)
Write it down. Write a love letter. Even to your “future”, imaginary, wished-for, still-stranger lover. Inspire yourself with your words. Write your TRUTH.
You will learn something new about your own, secret feelings.
Be open. SEEK openness. Be open to anything.
Because, Friends, ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.
Always. Everyday.
Everyday is an opportunity to LOVE.
May February’s freshness inspire and blanket you.
And remember- your love is already in your heart-waiting to bust-the-fuck out. Let go+let it!
Word.
Om Sai Love! Jai Ma! Shanti, baby!
Peace to you. :)
Love,
Biffy
Xo

Namaste, Salaam, Sussreekall and HolyshitdamnYeeehaw! Its Friday! What will you do with yourselves over the weekend as January comes to an abrupt halt. How are all of you BeautifulOnes doing in your quest to evolve (ie:”Resolutions”)?
Have they fallen away to the busy life? Did you slip and abandon the mission, alltogether?
I have been having a hard time with the “gum” thing.
I’m suuuuch a weakling! (And as you can see from this photo, taken about two tours ago…I have ALWAYS had this problem!

You know….it is only a matter of time before my teef hurt, again. The fruitarianism was the biggest culprit, originally. The “cavities-under-the-gumline” was a real pain in the ass! LOL! (Well…I guess pain-in-the-JAW would be more accurate).
I was undaunted in my dietary philosophies, as you know…….but the other unnecessaries did fade away.
Like gum-chewing.
Then….weirdly…they resumed.
I guess during chemo, or just after (its a blur) but I think its an oral-fixation??? Subconcious “stressors” manifesting in this delicious bubble-blowing,gum-snapping,loudly-chamming(according to an oft-annoyed Walker). I think I need to KEEP TRYING HARDER TO NOT CHEW ANY GUM!!! (Previously, I wa of the thinking that I should cease with the “sugar” gum…and that the sugar-free would be okay?)
But I need to simply STOP.
QUIT.
JUST SAY NO.
Not replace it with another habit, the way drunks substitute drugs(or vice versa), or the way eating-disorders or gamblers or sexaddicts switch teams…..(Bytheway..that is not meant to be a put-down or say that ALL of those folks trade addictions..just sayin)
No, friends, I need to go cold turkey and KEEP TRYING HARDER. Like anything we want to do.
Takes daily intention. INTENTION everysingleday.
I used to be…..a thumbsucker!!! (Yes, when I was a little kid! Duh!) And nothing my parents or teachers could do or say would deter me from chappin’ that red,little thumb every waking (and sleeping) moment. God knows why the fuck I didn’t develop reeeeeaaallly buck-teeth!!??
I don’t kknow how I stopped..I don’t remember. But I was probably, like, fuckin’ TWELVE, or something! LOL!
But I DID stop.
And I can stop delicious gum. Of COURSE I can. Right? Right.
And if we live with our INTENTION everyday. If we PAY ATTENTION TO OUR INTENTION…..well, anything is possible!!!!!!! *beam*
I am gonna WORK HARDER IN FEBRUARY to MAKE THOSE MOST STUBBORN UNWANTED HABITS BECOME HISTORY!!!!!!
Just because January is gone….and it is still a struggle with some “resolutions”..it doesn’t mean “oh well..guess I’d better give up”.
NEVER GIVE UP!
NEVER STOP TRYING!
If at first you don’t succeed, TRY HARDER!
That’s what I’m aiming for. Increasing my FOCUS and it will rejuvinate my DETERMINATION. I’m pumped for it!!!! Mind over matter!!!
And, with you guys in my corner, I just KNOW I will be successful!!! Strength in numbers.
I am also sending you Motivation and Encouragement to CONTINUE ON YOUR PATH whatever it is, and KEEP GOING!!!!!! February is gonna be crazy and we totally gotta keep our “Hands-in the-Middle” Team-Mentality! It will get us through. We can DO it!
We aint fuckin weak. LOL!

Big POWER to all of you! Blessings, Bliss, Love,
ENERGY…..
Om Sai Love+Hare Krishna NicklasRama..
Biffy
Xoxo