Namaste, Salaam, Sussreekall and HolyshitdamnYeeehaw! Its Friday! What will you do with yourselves over the weekend as January comes to an abrupt halt. How are all of you BeautifulOnes doing in your quest to evolve (ie:”Resolutions”)?
Have they fallen away to the busy life? Did you slip and abandon the mission, alltogether?
I have been having a hard time with the “gum” thing.
I’m suuuuch a weakling! (And as you can see from this photo, taken about two tours ago…I have ALWAYS had this problem!

You know….it is only a matter of time before my teef hurt, again. The fruitarianism was the biggest culprit, originally. The “cavities-under-the-gumline” was a real pain in the ass! LOL! (Well…I guess pain-in-the-JAW would be more accurate).
I was undaunted in my dietary philosophies, as you know…….but the other unnecessaries did fade away.
Like gum-chewing.
Then….weirdly…they resumed.
I guess during chemo, or just after (its a blur) but I think its an oral-fixation??? Subconcious “stressors” manifesting in this delicious bubble-blowing,gum-snapping,loudly-chamming(according to an oft-annoyed Walker). I think I need to KEEP TRYING HARDER TO NOT CHEW ANY GUM!!! (Previously, I wa of the thinking that I should cease with the “sugar” gum…and that the sugar-free would be okay?)
But I need to simply STOP.
QUIT.
JUST SAY NO.
Not replace it with another habit, the way drunks substitute drugs(or vice versa), or the way eating-disorders or gamblers or sexaddicts switch teams…..(Bytheway..that is not meant to be a put-down or say that ALL of those folks trade addictions..just sayin)
No, friends, I need to go cold turkey and KEEP TRYING HARDER. Like anything we want to do.
Takes daily intention. INTENTION everysingleday.
I used to be…..a thumbsucker!!! (Yes, when I was a little kid! Duh!) And nothing my parents or teachers could do or say would deter me from chappin’ that red,little thumb every waking (and sleeping) moment. God knows why the fuck I didn’t develop reeeeeaaallly buck-teeth!!??
I don’t kknow how I stopped..I don’t remember. But I was probably, like, fuckin’ TWELVE, or something! LOL!
But I DID stop.
And I can stop delicious gum. Of COURSE I can. Right? Right.
And if we live with our INTENTION everyday. If we PAY ATTENTION TO OUR INTENTION…..well, anything is possible!!!!!!! *beam*
I am gonna WORK HARDER IN FEBRUARY to MAKE THOSE MOST STUBBORN UNWANTED HABITS BECOME HISTORY!!!!!!
Just because January is gone….and it is still a struggle with some “resolutions”..it doesn’t mean “oh well..guess I’d better give up”.
NEVER GIVE UP!
NEVER STOP TRYING!
If at first you don’t succeed, TRY HARDER!
That’s what I’m aiming for. Increasing my FOCUS and it will rejuvinate my DETERMINATION. I’m pumped for it!!!! Mind over matter!!!
And, with you guys in my corner, I just KNOW I will be successful!!! Strength in numbers.
I am also sending you Motivation and Encouragement to CONTINUE ON YOUR PATH whatever it is, and KEEP GOING!!!!!! February is gonna be crazy and we totally gotta keep our “Hands-in the-Middle” Team-Mentality! It will get us through. We can DO it!
We aint fuckin weak. LOL!

Big POWER to all of you! Blessings, Bliss, Love,
ENERGY…..
Om Sai Love+Hare Krishna NicklasRama..
Biffy
Xoxo

Namaste! Gootenmorgen! Sussreekall! Salam! Merhaba! Bonjour! Howdy ho, Beautiful Ones. Energy and light to you! Thank you for being here! *beam*

Okay…
I need to tell you about something, and I believe it is important. Its not particularly riveting or earthshattering….but it is MY experience and that is really all. My, well…my writing experience.
I’ve written ever since I could hold a pen. Drawn. Drawn on Barbies, drawn on walls, drawn on runners. Written poems and nonsense that mapped my experiences and lots+lots+lots of love letters. LOL!
Eventually becoming a lyricist was inevitable, I suppose. A charmed creative life. I concur.
Embarking on trying to consisely compartmentalize my life’s story is insurmountable, at times, because of all the writing. Yepp. The HANDwriting.
It gets stupid. And the details are, for me, everything.
And there are a lot of details I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT. AT ALL. LIKE, NOT WHILE MY PARENTS ARE ALIVE. NOT EVEN WHILE I AM ALIVE. ACK!!! SHY! SHAME! FEAR! SUCK! WAH! HAND-WRINGING! ICKY FEELINGS! SAD! CRY! MAD! YUK! ..you get the picture. Daunting stressful efforts in many areas of my most sensitive writing, lately. :P
It is bringing up A LOT of stuff. I have a memory like an elephant! (Hellllooooowww??? Why can’t I be one of those who “blocks” shit out, yo??)
Sheesh! (Pranayama, please.)

And that is proving to eclipse the things I LOVE writing about: The color of the breeze. The scent of a car door. Name it. Isolating and emotionally exhausting a lot of the time (the REST of the time, on my tour hiatus, is spent in my domestic scene filled with recent drama, fresh revelation, and of course Nicklas!) So I take small breaks from my writing to, well, read.
I read A LOT. I am a bookworm. I love books and I love touchin em and flippin pages and the tactile sensory joy stirs me on a daily basis.
I’m drunk on words. Intoxicated. And I have and love to start new books.

Enter Theo.
You know, Theoren Fleury, the hockey champion (olympic Gold Medalist, Stanley Cup Champ, NHLsuperhero) wrote a book. And, like my own dark story, he had secrets to tell.
And that HAD to be hard. And I can not even fucking imagine. This man is astounding! Not only is he an accomplished athlete, and an example of beautiful self-discipline, but a resiliant and strong human being with more heart than almost anyone. His intimate honesty and integrity is a beacon of light and his bravery is helping me immensely!!! Though I have only just begun to explore his writing, I wanted to tell you to pick up his book and uncover, for yourselves, the inspiration it will bring to you.
Like me, Theoren is a survivor of the perils of living with sexual abuse and the lifetime of challenges and issues that results. He is very brave. Mas bravo que un lion! Rrrrrrooooar!!!
And one of my personal heros.
His book is called “Playing With Fire” and it is available on his website:

www.theofleury14.com

I encourage you to investigate and explore his website! He will inspire you and give you hope as he has given me.
I hope I can be as brave as he. I look up to him.
He is a champion. A SIksika Blackfoot Warrior. A husband. A father. A very human Human. A Legend. And, currently, MY coach, whether he would want to be or not! LOL! He is encouraging me to push myself.
Maybe writing is like stick handling? Here’s hoping I can learn to shoot a puck straight.
I am wishing each of you the bliss and love from The Universe and may all of us continue to discover true inspiration continuously to push us further in pursuit of The Path we are on.
Life’s pretty fucking cool, aint it? Om Nama Shivaya.
From my heart to where you are-Namaste!
Pure Love Energy,

Biffy
Xoxo

P.s. The picture is from my kitchen where I hang and display a lot of my dieties and Theo is up there with Sai Baba of Shirdi, Ganesha, Krishna, and The Teletubbies. Booyah!!!!!! HornnnnnnS!!!!! Xo

Namaste! Mekalekahimekahineeyho! Bonjour! Salaam! Hola! And of course HareKrishnaSusreekalSaiRam! In the tempests wake, may Blessings shower you, wherever you may be.
Yes, it has been an intense time and we praypraypray for our friends in Haiti. It was the biggest earthquake in 200years. Mercy! Have mercy!
Om Nama Shivaya.
Yes..there is a lot of tragedy on The Earth but Haiti has a quickly-rising deathcount maybe even over 200000! And over 3million people are directly affected. Those numbers will likely increase.
And it is sudden. And it is right now.
That is why it is on our tongues and our minds and in our broken hearts.
You know…
If you go to http://www.unicef.org/
You can donate funds, buy a safe water kit for a family, first aid supplykit, and find out what they have been doing. There are manymany organizations contributing besides Unicef, too.
There is the Red Cross: http://www.redcross.org/
And you can even donate your blood!
Oxfam is: http://www.oxfam.org/
And Medecins Sans Frontieres is: http://www.msf.org/
World Vision is: http://wvi.org/wvi/wviweb.nsf

I encourage you to look at everyone’s websites and investigate which ones you like to help.
I like em all!!! Yeah…lots of folks don’t like “religious affiliations” to International Charities….and I appreciate and hear that…but it doesn’t reeeeally matter as long as people who NEED help GET help.
And as you can see…by my included snapshot…Vancouver, in all it’s pre-Olympic grumbling, has flowering trees.
Floweringfuckingtrees.
Visual gifts.
There is nothing for us to complain about. We have not had a catastrophic earthquake this week.
Period.
We are veryvery blessed to live here and stare at each other every morning. Period.
It takes a crisis, sometimes, to remind us of what is important and integral.
Or..we can try+aim to be “those” type of people where we live EVERYDAY like it’s our very last, and walk around absolutely gratefully PRESENT all the time. It is basic and pure.
Yeah, it can be achieved. And one can fall off+on the “Mindfully Going Through Each Day” bandwagon (because regular life does so distract with “stressors”) and still come BACK to CENTER! Time+time again!!
Because SOMETHING or SOMEONE gives us a “wake up call”. A reality check. Perspective.
And then we Return. Back+forth like waves.
I think that’s okay. I figure its normal for people.
Its a goal..a goal of Staying Awake and Aware.
It is a positive philosopy and will create good feelings. Trust me.
Maybe Haiti has blessed us with such a gift and now we can bless them in any way we are able.

We need Haiti more than Haiti needs us.

They, all the people, are priceless and irreplaceable.
Just like you are.
Lovelovelove from my heart,
Biffy
Xoxo

Hola, Merhaba, Sussrekall, Bonjour et Salaam to all of you! May you be feeling peace and happiness where this finds you! BeautifulPeople, I wish you daily fun. Fun with anything!
Even if you are, as we are, standing in the monsoon-like rain! Ah, yes….it is predictably rainy in my city, and Vancouver is wet.
And beautiful.
Om Nama Gratitude, baby! I am grateful the rain is clean and fresh, and would hope it washes away the negativity from the world,
And the *gasp* negativity I sometimes look at myself with. Cuz its normal- even for a bubbly-little-optimist such as myself. Seeee? I’m ever the honest grrrrrl, even though I’m accused of being “too optimistic”. WhatEVVVVer!
It has been a very busy week and I am distracted from much with work. Except, of course, my babydog-Nicklas.
He Is helping me, actually, with a lot of issues I’m having.
You see, having been a performer and busybee for 20yrs, and travelling so much and thriving with my Sattvic, rawvegan diet throughout, I was predictably slim. Being very active through shows and excercise and yoga and martialarts impacted my physiology further. In all fairness, I was likely a bit underweight.
Enter chemo. I assure you, most of us believe “chemo” makes the body emaciated and sickly.
Sadly, this may be true for many patients with many different chemotherapy prescriptions.
Well, not for moi! LOL!
Most of the girls I know who are fellow breastcancer patients GAIN weight. Like my co-patients, I did.
And I worked out during chemo.
And I made a record during chemo.
Not because “I was feeling so awesome” but because its what I do and what I know.
I ate extremely healthgful food and didn’t miss one chemo due to neutropenia, or anything, as a result. Plus, because I excercised during treatment, I’m convinced I did better than I would have, had I not moved my body around, encouraging all my systems to function optimally. Made sense to me and made me feel in control of my fight.
I tried to be a model patient.and I still do, approaching everything with openmindedness, pragmatism, optimism, and lovenergy.

Enter my job “in front of the camera”.
Loveydoveyfriends, it can be an absolute MINDFUCK!
Even for the Krishnaconcious. Even for the beautifulpeople.
Even for goofy little me.

Not one of us humans, living in this society, is immune from self-deprication. It is brainwashed into us from a young age. We don’t even really know its there, half the time.
And it is annoying when it comes into my monkeymind, because I identify those feelings as “hollow” and “shallow” and admonish myself further for even thinking about such topics, y’know? Duh!
Soooooooo many things are sso much more important, and it is time-wasting to be concerned about “appearance”.
But as a fellow flawed human- I still think about it. :P
And with all my “on-camera” work this week-it came up a lot.
And then………I look to my babydog!

Nicklas is an unintentional teacher. He is not “trying to lead” me to Righteousness.
But I learn from him:
*Nick does not know what he weighs.
*Nicjk does not care what he weighs.
*Nick does not think about wrinkles.
*Nick does not stress about having his picture taken.
*Nick is not concerned about BMI.
*Nick doesn’t wish his “jeans from three years ago” fit
*Nick does not give ONE thought to these things.
Neither should we. :)
My cherished friends, with it being a NewYear, I encourage you to abandon past habits of “self-deprication”. Don’t have that running inner dialogue of negativity. You are way too awesome!!!! I will endeavour to join you in the breaking of that habit. Fuck it.
Listen to Mastodon.
Walk your dog.
Call your mom.
Have a bath.
Brush your teef.
Eat a banana.
Even eat two!
And feel good about yourself. No matter what. You are Perfect. And that is the Truth.
Wherever you are at this moment, is where you are supposed to be. Honest!
And, if your favorite jeans no longer fit, the brightside might be that you have to buy a bigger BRA!!!! LOLOLOLOLOL!
Have an awesome weekend and live in your Light!!!
With love and adoration, as ever,
Sai Love to you all!
Hare Krishna.
Fuckin’ Horns,
Biffy
Xoxoxox

Namaste and Salaam! I am vibrating with sheer HAPPINESS and wish the same for all of you BeautifulAngels!!! May this week be incredibly motivating and positively inspiring for all of you! Gratitude is Highest Priority, and part of my personal, Path of Righteous Thinking. Fuck yeah!
Wherever you are is where you are meant to be in this moment, and that is a cool fact!
I am BURSTING to tell you about my recent experiences, but am basically under a bit of a gag-order and must respect that, no matter how badly I am ready to shout from the mountaintops!
Aaaaack! Its hard but a very good excersise in Self-Discipline. :P
(Think grade six, when, say, Mrs.Spivey from my Lexington, KY, elementary school made me write 500 “lines”-almost weekly-for punnihments, usually for “talking-and-horseplay-in-class”, that said:”SELF DISCIPLINE REQUIRES DOING WHAT IS NECESSARY, WHEN IT SHOULD BE DONE, WHETHER IT IS A PLEASANT TASK OR NOT”. I still have it memorized as a result!)
I have been a verry busy girl and though I can’t tell you (yet) exactly what is underway, I want to share some information because I want you to explore your OWN POTENTIAL, and I want you to experience the BEST LIFE you can!!
I truly believe you would LOVE the people I have been meeting as much as I do!
And, yo, Homies, that’s why we’re friends!!! LOL!
I invite and encourge you to explore, further, the friends’ websites I will list for you, here:
They all inspire me immeasurably!

http://www.rawfoundation.ca
http://www.organiclives.org
http://www.myspace.com/djbettiforde
http://www.youtube.com/user/michaelvenustv
http://www.govegan.net
http://liberationbc.org
http://www.cbcf.org
http://www.bccancerfoundation.com
http://www.adoptionbc.com
http://www.aplacetobark.com
http://www.saintsrescue.ca
http://www.karmavore.ca
http://www.sonjapicard.com
http://www.openspaceyoga.com
http://www.yogaforthepeople.ca
http://www.radhavancouver.org
http://www.yyoga.ca
http://www.kickaxe.net/
And sooooo many more but I’m gettin the cane-pull off the stage, here. LOL!
I just believe each one of us all (yeah, YOU and ME and HIM and HER and THEM AND EVEN NICKLAS!!) Has so much Divinity…so much goodshit to share that I want to SHARE with you.
We all motivate each other conciously and subconciously. Live with Intention.
I Intend for you to love these peeps as much as I do. :)
I hope all of you have A stellar week and your minds and alll of your Chakras/Chi/Lifeforce are OPEN SESAME!!!! Feeeeeeel your life! Feel it.
Ya feel me?
Have a great week and keep Fightin the Good Fight! Sending you loveydovey hugs and full-on horns from my heart,
Shanti to you.
Love and blessings,
Biffy
Xoxo

Oh and I have included a snapshot of one of my bookcases-this one is in my kitchen. Yeah-it is my favowit! I learn most everything from books. Weird but true. :)