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Aug
All I Want…
Namaste and Salaam to all of you WonderfulSuperBeautiful People!
I am sending out the Positive Vibes and GoodHappy Energy to everyone!
I have been very busy, this week, with everything from interviews to doctors’ appointments to workouts to studio time (where Darr and I are embarking on some very fun tuneage!!!!!!!!). Busybusybusy and heinously underslept, but I feel remarkably well and totally amped!
Life is, as ever, an adventure and a gift. Om Nama Shivaya.
I have been addressing WEAKNESSES this week. What prompted this was a continuing conversation with a dear friend of mine, where alllllll she talks about is alllll the shoes she buys.
She loves shoes. (Sure, don’t we all?)
But she spends alotalot of money on these, and is constantly buying and buying more. It is weird and I have a feeling she is trying to fill a void. Trying to satisfy something by this constant “aquiring” of things.
Almost like a “collector”, but it seems unhealthy.
It made me examine my OWN behaviours and I have similar habits, from time-to-time. I suppose we all do.
My problem is books. Always has been.
I don’t honestly know how many books I have. Thousands?
I’m a sucka for books. They bring me joy. I love touchin em and flippin through and huggin em and talkin about em.
Almost NO FICTION books. Just other books. Chinese medicine, Ayurveda, yoga, Martial Arts, medical references, medical textbooks, contemporary art, history of fashion, Criminology, poetry, Islam, Hinduism, Tibetan Buddhism, raw foodism, cookbooks, history, feminism, animals, languages, philosophy, bodybuilding, pop art, nutrition, sex and tantra, history of music, Christianity, travel, biographies of world leaders, etc.etc.etc. and on and on and on!!!
I have to ask myself: do I NEED any more?
The answer is “no”.
I’m good.
We’re cool.
I’m done.
That’s enough. I have enough.
I am actually veryvery thrilled at that exact fact: “I have enough”.
(Even though you+i both know my friend “has enough” shoes…….she is still trying to aquire as a means of fulfilling something missing in her life. Poor girl!)
So, I am happy to share with you my new mantra (currently) which is:
ALL I HAVE IS ALL I WANT.
And that is a delightful place to be, mentally. I don’t know if its forever (and BELIEVE ME: I will definately be tempted as there is a new book out on “Japanese Goth” that I’m dying to get! LOL!)
But as a personal challenge to myself, I will tighten my own leash. To honor my friend (who we can clearly see is suffering from “desire” and “attachments”) I do not endeavour to lead-by-example for her…….but recognizng weakness in someone else has given me a reminder to keep my own shit in-check. And that’s always a good thing. There is always room for improvement and evolution.
I am sending my mostheartfelt gratitude to you all, to The Universe, and to my collection of books. All of these bring me joy and motivation everysingle day.
My life is enriched and I am truly thankful. Fuck yeah!
Have a stellar weekend and I will see you in the bookstore! Hopefullyhopefullyhopefully, I will be “just browsing”. LOL!
Be well and be positive and be yourself. You are the BEST!!!
Om Hare Om.
Lovelovelove and blessings,
BiffyXoxo
August 7th, 2009 at 11:16 AM
Bif Your such a wicked person , Ur just incredible , I dont really read im more of an artistic person i like to draw ahaa , it would be just amazing to see u in a book store i think i would go Nuts .
-Hannah
Hope to meet u one day!!
August 7th, 2009 at 2:23 PM
I am re-discovering my addiction to books. As a kid that’s all I would do is read read read. I still have all the books I had as a kid. Several boxes full. Both fiction and non-fiction.
At work in the office, I get to read in my spare time when it gets slow (I take calls in a call center) and my latest addiction is ARCHIE COMICS. I love them. As a kid I wanted to be an artist for Archie Comics. I looked up to people like Dan DeCarlo (RIP), Stan Goldberg, and Samm Swartz. I became familiar with the names of my favorite pencillers and inkers. Ahhh.. That would be the best job. Drawing all day..
:)
August 7th, 2009 at 6:19 PM
Found this blog through the “Wiki Hole” and am very grateful I did. Your music made an epic impact on my teenage years, and I’m glad to see that you’re still out there making music. I love reading this blog and getting all the positive vibes you’re throwing out to the world. This entry makes me want to take an inventory of my own life and see what material things are getting in the way of my own journey.
You are rad. Keep fighting the fight and making awesome tuneage.
- Alexis
August 8th, 2009 at 9:16 AM
You will find me in the library. I am addicted to books also. It’s the best kind of drug! ;)
August 10th, 2009 at 10:54 AM
Lol you’re an inspiration I wish I could be as strong as you, you would hate my house I fear there is ’stuff’ everywhere, boooks, games, cds, dvds, I’m terrible for it nd its a side of myself I dont like much at all! I have curbed on my buying things I dont need as I’m well aware I don’t need anything more at all!
Getting rid of what I ahve that I dont need is my main problem, cant do it, I ahve tried so many times. Aagh so weak.
But yes books are good! People dont read enough at all anymore <3 I’m reaidng ‘Bushido’ at the moment, great stuff ~x~
August 10th, 2009 at 6:19 PM
I was 24 when I rediscovered the joys of a local public library. There’s nothing like running your fingers across the spines of THOUSANDS of books, just looking for a sign for the next one to read. Although I must say, for me, it is all about fiction, science fiction, magical realism, and what not. I truly believe that reading contains a little slice of genuine magic. I read about the jungle, about the arctic, about Mars, and I’m there. Beautiful. There’s nothing like going to the front desk with an armload of books waiting to be read. And it’s free. And then someone else will discover their magic after you. I think a public library is a pretty amazing place, myself. READING ROCKS!!!!!!!
Love Julia